I had a reason for reflection on my "love life" today. Someone asked me are you afraid to love? I don't think this is it in the least. I just feel I have a lot of work to do on myself to be a whole person. I don't know if it will take me a lifetime and I will choose not to love again, or I fall madly in love when I am 95. Who knows right?
My life will be full of laughter and travel. I don't feel the need to have that "one special" person in my life. I wouldn't mind a few friends now and then. I shielded myself for a long time to friends. I hadn't had a real friend since my first marriage. My friends consisted of my immediately family or spouse.
Will I be a good friend? I don't know. I do get wrapped up thinking about all I need to do and if I had a friend, would I have the time needed to think of these things? Now of course, I know this is absurd, but what can I say.....
I will continue my path to recovery while making my way back to society. I will be working soon. It is what I need, and hey, I find my patients are my friends when I am working. I used to get so many nice gifts for no reason at all!
...or maybe they appreciated a good friend? Maybe I do have what it takes, but I won't know until I try.
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